I woke up this morning seeing the anime drawing you gave me hanging on my wall. I got up and fell back on bed lying half of my body and extended my hands up and felt the fur of the stuff toy you bought. Went for an iced tea and reflexively grabbed the green coke bottle. Seemed like everything I do reminds of you.
It took me a week to sink everything in. I'm not sure if I really completely did...But I wanted to stay away and just let things flow as the universe wanted it to be. I felt so exhausted thinking about everything now and cried for the first time since we last talked. I've been trying to vent, but there was literally no tears coming out.. and this made my burden even heavier each day. Well, inhaling deeply helped a lot lessen the pain.
Everyday, all I'm praying for is strength to overcome whatever lies ahead. Come what may... I just feel so numb now.
You were no longer the man that man I've met. Did I influenced you to be who you are now? You are insensitive, inconsiderate and very rude. I've noticed also that you are trying to conceal your roots. Did that boost your confidence?
What if fate will lead me to becoming DH abroad and will post everything about my job on your wall? Will you disown me and delete those stuff also? I didn't realize you could be that heartless.
I don't want to judge, but i can't help my self to conclude that you can do that to me. Actually, you already did. You turned away because you're ashamed of having an unemployed girlfriend. I'm sorry I just can't be so perfect.
It's still difficult for me to accept that things turned this way after the years that we have shared together...I'm half angry and half doubting myself, but I'm hopeful it will go on better as days passes. I hope you will realize what you have to, before you can have a taste of your own medicine...and also, value those people who are working to provide you something.
Everyday, all I'm praying for is strength to overcome whatever lies ahead. Come what may... I just feel so numb now.
You were no longer the man that man I've met. Did I influenced you to be who you are now? You are insensitive, inconsiderate and very rude. I've noticed also that you are trying to conceal your roots. Did that boost your confidence?
What if fate will lead me to becoming DH abroad and will post everything about my job on your wall? Will you disown me and delete those stuff also? I didn't realize you could be that heartless.
I don't want to judge, but i can't help my self to conclude that you can do that to me. Actually, you already did. You turned away because you're ashamed of having an unemployed girlfriend. I'm sorry I just can't be so perfect.
It's still difficult for me to accept that things turned this way after the years that we have shared together...I'm half angry and half doubting myself, but I'm hopeful it will go on better as days passes. I hope you will realize what you have to, before you can have a taste of your own medicine...and also, value those people who are working to provide you something.
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